if only...

sometimes i despite myself too,
just like what they said, i'm a b*tch.

probably i really am one.
i don't know.
the way i speak or act might just be too harsh for them.
as they don't know what environment that i grew up in.

a family,
like it's not.

sometimes i tell myself,
Annley, if only you can be better.
if only you're not this Annley in a way.
if only you're more polite.
if only you're better in comforting people,

things might be better.

to me, i felt like i was in the game like SAW.
and i'm so not good with games.

is it right to set someone you love and care free,
but got yourself locked up in a cage?

i don't know.
my future is really plain black, but i do know the ending of my life.
which is .. DEATH.

maybe we humans are born to make this world a better place as God wants to.
but seriously, think what have we done.

pollution, disease, war, causing so many innocent life gone, vanished.
is that their destiny? to die in war? sickness?
or is it US people that actually executed them in another way?

we're born and knowing that we will die, one day, eventually.
Yet, we don't really know how to appreciate life.
we're still afraid when that day comes.
and we won't stop asking WHY, WHY and WHY.

until the end of the time, many people still don't know why.
but i guess i already did.

If the pain hurts so much, i'll endure it.
If this is all i have, i'd give it all.
If this is what i'll pay for, i'd pay for the price.

i'll appreciate all the Yesterday(s) and all the memories we had.
even if you don't, not anymore.
They'll be my drive to keep me alive.
i won't give up, i won't seal up my future.

I AM NOT A REGRET.

Summarized : MAY!

It's 22 May humans!

Yet, I'm still alive!! Hahah

Oh Yeah, sorry for the not-blogging-days.

This lil girl here (ME) is having a Mid-Term-Exam @ School, yeah I stressed out.
Exam starts by the 7th of May until the 24th of May.

Which means, my exam is still not over yet ;)
But, there's only 2 subjects left. Which is my fav BIOLOGY and Chinese.

Well well, as if you guys know.. I was always screwed by numberic subjects so..(Y)!
Gaaahhh. When will my maths cells come back to me ? OHGOD.

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A blog post about last Friday, yeah i meant last friday :)
the 20th of May.

My dear practical teacher Miss Azrin who taught me English for few months and also Miss Norziela that taught me Mathematics. (Gosh, i know i've bring trouble to Miss Norziela :p)

Well, they're leaving SV :(
Sad isn't it ? Too bad! They had to move on to the SOCIETY :D

Class 4Erat and our class (just like few of us) held on a Surprise Party/Surpised Farewell Party for the both of 'em ! ;)

-ihavenocameras, soihavenophotos-

ONE AND ONLY PHOTO I GOT :

Me with Miss Azrin.
Comments? : I know i looked so dang pale and Fwaaaaat. But, my teacher is shoooo Gorgeous okay?! :p Feel free to on your jealousy mode ! Heeeh.

Are you asking about Miss Norziela @ Miss Maths ?
I'll post up her photo as soon as she upload 'em :)
Annley promise ! :D


My lovely message to my lovely-gorgeous teachers ♥ :

I don't know whether you'll be able to read this message but, I'm still gonna type it :)

Dear Miss Azrin,

Honestly, YOU SHOULD GAIN SOME WEIGHT! Haaahh. Naaah, I'm just joking :)Well, the very first day when you walked into our class.. all of us was liked : WOAAAAHHH :O.
I know you get that alot ;) heeh. Thank you for teaching us, thank you for forgiving me for not handing in my works :p Thank you for everything and i wish you the best!
Have fun in the NEW SCHOOL that you're going to teach, enjoy your life and DO MISS US OKAY? :D

ILOVEYOU, WELOVEYOU. ♥



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Dear Miss Norziela @ Miss Maths,

We are so in-common and I know that! Haha. You have a soft voice and do take care of 'em :) Don't lose your voice again, Heeeh :D And I'll work harder in Calculations teacher, i'll try my best. This is a true statement teacher! :D Well, teacher..sorry that we've got you teary :( We are very sorry about thaat. You're the best maths teacher ever! :D So, take care okay? Online more frequently, check us out at the 4Dinamik's wall ;) We're all active-members of the Group ♥

Thank you for guiding me when I'm suffering doing the Maths exercises, thank you for not ignoring me whenever i asked stupid questions about Maths in class ;) Thank you sooo much for paying attention on a student like me :D And THANKYOUVERMUCH for teaching us! I'm hoping to see you again at the Teacher's Day ;)

All the best to you! And DO MISS US OKAY? Haaah :p

ILOVEYOUMYMISSMATHS ♥.
YOU'RESUCHAGOODTEACHER :)







p/s: I love my teacher for being so awesome ! ;)
Teachers play a very main role in my life yknow?!

Dearest,

AnnleyC