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A V E R A G E JANE: so what did 'sepet' taught us?: ""lancau itu cina juga lu mahu ka?" (colour merah konon tgh marah la tu) when i first read the comment, I felt angry and sumpah m...



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 " lancau itu cina juga lu mahu ka? "

(colour merah konon tgh marah la tu)

when i first read the comment, I felt angry and sumpah macam nak baling selipar jepun colour biru putih yang orang bawak pergi jamban tu kasi sepak-sepak muka anonymous ni sampai pecah gigi berterabur atas lantai then pijak2 sampai jadi serbuk pastu tiup...fiu~ (that was a joke people, take a chill pill)



Dahla takde telur letak comment as anonymous. Hey if you dare to say something so racist like that fcking have the balls to put your name and all, claim your right to speak up your mind. Don't say something but hide behind ketiak mak kau! I'm sorry if this post sounds a tad bit rude, but i really feel that I have the right to do so. I am not sure whether you're saying tht for me or for zenny but FCK you, still. (with passion and love xoxo lol)


I thought living in this country, being in an integrated community, people are more receptive towards an interracial relationship but when I think back of all the times I see people giving me or him the look for walking with a person from a different race holding hands, I could feel the piercing eyes and the snide remarks (no I don't have bionic eyesight or hearing) especially from older people, for instance makcik pakai tudung senget ikat bawah dagu and pakcik yang bawak anak misai tebal (bukan Datuk K), or the old uncle with the kedai kopi main mahjong shorts and aunty with super permed hair and flower blouse....wahhh their stares ah i tell youuuuu, if ada laser can burn a hole in my tank top mannn. But then again, I can still accept it from those kind of people because i'd understand if they are not really exposed to the whole interracial thingy.



Don't fret, I'm not being bias to anyone, I'm a product of interracial marriage too. Damn bloody rojak I must say. So love doesn't take into account of what race you are, most important is how you treat the other person with much respect and care no matter what background you come from. And being with another person from a different race taught me about being open in conversations, to not judge, listen, learn and be more sensitive. I'm not saying we are surely gonna marry each other but everyday is a learning experience for me, and I'm thankful that he's also very open and receptive to the idea of me being culturally contemporary but still sticking to my roots and religions on some parts.



What pissed me the most are those youngsters who always talk as if their race is fckg superior than the other. Come on man, you go to a cinema ada ke segregated area according to race? you go clubbing also like that ke? got ke Changkat only for Malays and Heritage only for Chinese. Got ke? I can proudly say that me and my friends all don't care about our differences in race, religion and upbringing and we click very well. We can even talk about any of the topics openly. Joking about the stereotypical standards are fine, but not up to the point of being serious about who's better than who. So shame on you people who seem to think that me and my friends are fcked up or me being with zenny is totally wrong. I don't seem to think there's anything wrong about it. Religion issue put aside, we are all totally the same, just different in skin colour.



Penat Yasmin Ahmad buat movie nak buka kan mata rakyat Malaysia on race integration, siap semua orang puji, standing ovation, "great movie", "an eye opener", "kisah cinta sejati orked and sape tah nama dia" etc etc but actually there are still that many Malaysians who are still blind, surprisingly not colour blind -_-



really, sad...




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if only...

sometimes i despite myself too,
just like what they said, i'm a b*tch.

probably i really am one.
i don't know.
the way i speak or act might just be too harsh for them.
as they don't know what environment that i grew up in.

a family,
like it's not.

sometimes i tell myself,
Annley, if only you can be better.
if only you're not this Annley in a way.
if only you're more polite.
if only you're better in comforting people,

things might be better.

to me, i felt like i was in the game like SAW.
and i'm so not good with games.

is it right to set someone you love and care free,
but got yourself locked up in a cage?

i don't know.
my future is really plain black, but i do know the ending of my life.
which is .. DEATH.

maybe we humans are born to make this world a better place as God wants to.
but seriously, think what have we done.

pollution, disease, war, causing so many innocent life gone, vanished.
is that their destiny? to die in war? sickness?
or is it US people that actually executed them in another way?

we're born and knowing that we will die, one day, eventually.
Yet, we don't really know how to appreciate life.
we're still afraid when that day comes.
and we won't stop asking WHY, WHY and WHY.

until the end of the time, many people still don't know why.
but i guess i already did.

If the pain hurts so much, i'll endure it.
If this is all i have, i'd give it all.
If this is what i'll pay for, i'd pay for the price.

i'll appreciate all the Yesterday(s) and all the memories we had.
even if you don't, not anymore.
They'll be my drive to keep me alive.
i won't give up, i won't seal up my future.

I AM NOT A REGRET.