sometimes i despite myself too,
just like what they said, i'm a b*tch.
probably i really am one.
i don't know.
the way i speak or act might just be too harsh for them.
as they don't know what environment that i grew up in.
a family,
like it's not.
sometimes i tell myself,
Annley, if only you can be better.
if only you're not this Annley in a way.
if only you're more polite.
if only you're better in comforting people,
things might be better.
to me, i felt like i was in the game like SAW.
and i'm so not good with games.
is it right to set someone you love and care free,
but got yourself locked up in a cage?
i don't know.
my future is really plain black, but i do know the ending of my life.
which is .. DEATH.
maybe we humans are born to make this world a better place as God wants to.
but seriously, think what have we done.
pollution, disease, war, causing so many innocent life gone, vanished.
is that their destiny? to die in war? sickness?
or is it US people that actually executed them in another way?
we're born and knowing that we will die, one day, eventually.
Yet, we don't really know how to appreciate life.
we're still afraid when that day comes.
and we won't stop asking WHY, WHY and WHY.
until the end of the time, many people still don't know why.
but i guess i already did.
If the pain hurts so much, i'll endure it.
If this is all i have, i'd give it all.
If this is what i'll pay for, i'd pay for the price.
i'll appreciate all the Yesterday(s) and all the memories we had.
even if you don't, not anymore.
They'll be my drive to keep me alive.
i won't give up, i won't seal up my future.
I AM NOT A REGRET.
